There’s something about this time of year… It’s a reflective time, it’s a costly time, both financially and emotionally and for some it’s a lonely time (even with family and friends around). It’s a time of change and looking ahead at the coming year.
I’ll admit, for me it’s hard. At least right now. I’ve been terrible about writing updates on my life for a long while now but a lot has happened in the last few months. Hell, a lot has happened in the last year and as I look back on it, I can’t believe most of it.
More recent news. I finally got the promotion I’d been working towards. I’m now an ASM (Assistant Store Manager) for Starbucks but as with all things, it came with a price and I’m still trying to decide if it was worth it or not. For the last year I’ve worked a pretty regular Mon-Fri schedule with weekends off to spend at home with Carey. Since my promotion, I’ve been moved to a 24hr store with a schedule that leaves much to be desired. As my mother likes to note, I don’t deal well when my life doesn’t have routine and I’m noticing more lately how true it is. I’m confident it’s a mixture of a lot of things but I’ve certainly noticed a change in my emotional health since starting my new job. Even as I sit here writing this, trying to sort out the events of this past year, the rollercoaster of emotions, the myriad changes I’ve faced, the adjustments we (Carey and I) have made in our lives, the growth, the steps backward and the bumps along the way, I find myself holding back a wellspring of tears that I know with certainty are long overdue.
In other news, Carey and I are officially engaged. This too I’m sure is long overdue hehe. It’s true that from the day I met her, what feels both like yesterday and a century ago, I knew that she and I should spend the rest of our lives together. It was only a matter of working out the particulars. For the last many months, we’ve been talking about our wedding, at first very casually until one day Carey came home and said she’d just purchased her wedding dress. And so it went… talking and planning for a wedding. It’s been a very non-traditional experience. I made her a temporary engagement ring out of FIMO modeling clay until my great-grandmothers engagement ring came in from my mom and although I’m sure we’re not “on schedule” with how much planning we should already have complete, I think we’re doing fine. We’ll be married October 3rd of next year. For more info on our wedding (and other things Carey writes about) feel free to check out the blog I set up for her here.
This past year has been sprinkled with a mixture of good times and hard times but in the end, I still find myself looking back in amazement at where life has taken me in a little over a year. Carey is and forever will be the very best thing to happen to me and although Chicago can be a tough city at times, I can’t think of anywhere else I’d rather be so long as she and I are here together.
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more to come later I think
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