Monthly Archive for March, 2006

• My grandmother got in car accident which I had previously posted about. The details are a bit muddy as it’s all secondary information but from what I gather, my extended family in the NorthEast acted quite unbelievably and my grandmother ended up in a ‘rehab facility’ (ie. a place my aunt put my grandmother to ‘get better’ where they also seemingly put crazy old people). My grandmother isn’t crazy but the environment she was put in would have killed her in only days had my parents not both flown up there, spoken with numerous doctors and transported my grandmother down to Florida.

  I went to visit her the Saturday she got down here and was shocked to see how bad off she was. She weighed 83lbs, was wearing a neck-brace due to the two broken vertebra at the base of her skull (which I now hear the doctors had put on her backwards and it wasn’t until she got down here to Florida that my parents discovered their ‘mistake.’) She drifted in and out for the next few days of which I went to visit her every day after work. It was and still is, the opinion of her doctor up North that if she does not start eating more, she will die.

  Since Saturday, I have spent every night after work at my parents house, trying to convince my grandmother that she needs to eat. She improved in a few days time but is now seemingly playing “sympathy games” with everyone. She had the same doctor for 40yrs and was always at his office complaining of some ailment because it got her attention. Although she is now gambling with her life, it appears that she is doing it again… this time by not eating.

  There was a huge explosion of emotion at my parents house last night when my grandmother for WHAT reason I cannot tell, proclaimed that my mother “just didn’t care” about her anymore. This of course caused my mother to break into tears as she loves my grandmother very much but can only handle so much. The fact of the matter is, if my grandmother doesn’t eat (which she is fully capable of doing), she will die. There are no other options. Only time will tell what the outcome is but it has been and will continue to be an extremely emotionally draining period.

• Work is okay. The more I learn my job, the more I realize how many ‘glitches’ there are in the many processes in place here. I was doing my best at finding answers, talking to different departments and coming up with solutions which my new boss (as we just changed dept. heads) seemed to fully support. Lately, I have been bringing these things to my bosses attention because although I can research the issues and fix a few of them, some of them require the initiative of someone in a much higher position than myself. My conversation with her this afternoon left me with the feeling that although she says “good ideas.. keep ‘em coming,” she really doesn’t want me involving myself in them because she was put in this department to fix it. Is this merely a ‘glory’ issue?

  At this point, I have resigned myself to ignoring the issues that I KNOW should be taken care of ASAP if this company expects to grow. It is not my job and after the response I got today, I will no longer take the initiative.

• Home-life is good. My relationship is still moving forwards although we have both been thinking about how we are going to get back to school. I make enough money at this job to always have a good amount in savings. My bills are being paid off and when I want to buy something, I have no problem doing so but I think we are BOTH still missing the last piece of the puzzle which is required to move forwards in life (ie. degree. the completion of something which we both started years ago).
• Although it’s taken forever due in part to the fact that Alpha Shirt Company was out of them, I’ve finally ordered the last of the shirts I need for the first run. I will be printing a total of 30 shirts in various sizes. I’m hoping I will sell all of them as in the past it seems, I’ve overestimated the appeal of the things which I create and I’ve still got a large volume of leftovers from a lot of past projects.
• Travelinghead project is coming along. Keith and I are slowly ironing out the overall design but once that is complete, the rest of the site will come together quickly. I am excited regardless of how long it takes to complete. I’ve told Keith that if it takes a year but is done the way it should be, I will be more than content. LOTS of features on my mind, LOTS of really great stuff…really.
• I’ve also been working on building out some ideas for yet another business venture which I think has a LOT of potential. I’m ready and willing to invest a good amount of money into it to get it done right but I still have a few months of planning ahead of me. It’s something which I’m sure I’ll be coming to you all for opinions on as you are part of my target audience.

back to work.