Life of The Average Joe
it’s 10pm, and regardless of any homework that i should be doing right now.. .i’m going to bed. i almost fell asleep on the way home from class tonight. i need to get some sleep. i’m setting my alarm for 5am though, so i can wake up and at least clean a bit of my room.
there is a breeze blowing by my window right now.. so i’ve got that open. that should help me sleep. i love it when there is actually a ‘cool’ breeze (it reminds me of back up North). aww.
goodnight world.
i’m glad i went to sailing practice. with Stan there (old sailing coach for USF) i learned a lot about my specific job on the boat, and we didn’t have any trouble today. so, it was well worth it.
i called Sam (my manager from the cafe) when i got back from practice, and from the start, he was giving me shit… what sucks, is i was over at my parents house for my dads birthday, so i couldn’t be a dick back. i said, “hey Sam…” and he said… “listen man.. this is like.. the THIRD week that you’ve not been able to work. the third week.” (to be honest, i don’t remember why i couldn’t work last weekend.) either way, i told him that i had tried to get a hold of him last week and couldn’t so i left a message with another manager and asked if she could leave a note for him. he said… “well listen man.. you’re an adult. you have a job. you need to be more responsible. come into work and leave a note in my box. i mean, come on.” instantly, i was put on the defensive.. don’t fuckin’ patronize me. that’s like when my parents tell me that i need to be responsible. so.. i started getting snide. and said, “look.. for the most part, YOU haven’t had the schedule up for the following week.. until SUNDAY.. i left a note with a manager.. i’m sorry that it didn’t get to you. sure, i should have come into work.. but guess what.. i’ve got NO time. i’ve either been at school. at home doing homework, or at sailing practice.” i don’t think he liked that.
basically, i don’t see myself working at Borders for too much longer. i’m going to have to figure something else out as far as ‘extra income’ is concerned. oh well. one step at a time.
i guess i’m going to go sailing. as i was walking aimlessly around the house, i realized something… even though i didn’t have to work at all this weekend, i STILL didn’t talk to Sam (my manager) about next weekend. i automatically assumed that Christi (the other manager that i had spoke to last week about my sailing regatta) had relayed that information to Sam. i don’t know what i’m going to do if he’s scheduled me to work and i can’t.
my life is sooo difficult. *sigh* haha. i should probably care more than i do. maybe i’ll give them a call real quick-like before i leave for St. Pete.
[update] i just called work. aparently, i’m on the schedule for next weekend… this is SO not good. i’m out of town for my regatta next weekend. aparently, when Christi wrote him an e-mail, it was only about this past weekend. gah! i’m such a thorn in their side. i just don’t want to piss them off to an extent that they want to fire me (if they don’t already)… but.. i CAN’T work this weekend. AND, to top it off.. i’m not going to be able to talk to Sam until later on tonight.
i DO sort of know what’s going on.. at least.. in the background. it’s just that right now, a LOT of things are going on; enough so, that i feel like they’re pulling me under. sailing is and always has been a HUGE commitment. i am actually crewing on a race in Maryland (against the Navy) next weekend. i’m not ready. every time i go out with the team.. something goes wrong. i’ve had a total of a week (give or take a few days) to practice for this. they’ve already got my plane ticket… i’m going. i don’t want to look like a fool out there. so.. there’s number one. number two: sailing is SO much work, that it’s making it hard for me to have time for things like… REAL work (where i make money) and for getting my school projects done. but, i WANT to sail. it’s fun. it’s something that i’ve wanted to do for a long time. so let’s see, we’re on to number three? okay, so number three is: because of all of these things like school and sailing, i have little to NO time to work at an actual job… which wreaks havoc on my finances. basically, i’m swamped with homework and projects for classes that are constantly coming due. i have shitty finances, but i’m STILL not ready to give in and sell my Jeep (it just seems like a bad idea.. sorta) and well.. i’m stuck (voluntarily) in the whole ’sailing thing.’
it’s 5:58… and i feel strange. i can’t explain exactly what i mean but… there’s an odd ‘discomfort’ in the air. before a storm, a person can usually sense a change in the air. it gets… heavier. i feel that now, in my lungs. what is this weight? it’s perversely overbearing. i think i’ll get in my Jeep now, and go for a drive. i don’t know where… but there must be SOMEPLACE that i can escape this. please. the noises are hollow. my vision is blurred. everything feels like plastic under my fingertips. my body sways gently, as though ushered by an afternoon breeze, though i know that there is no wind… it is the weight.
my heart is heavy for the world. for life… my life. and i can’t explain why exactly. i go.
some funny shit:
this is a quote from an article on Yahoo about record companies, trying their best to ‘combat’ piracy over P2P (peer-to-peer) networks. i just thought this bit was good…
“The bill would allow copyright holders to block, disable or impair a P2P node suspected of distributing their copyrighted material without express permission.
It states that a copyright holder may not delete files from users’ hard drives, but it limits the rights of users to sue should files be inadvertently deleted.”
so what.. a file goes missing and.. “oops! we uh.. we didn’t do it.. but.. um.. if we DID.. you can’t SUE! hehe.” -Record Company.
yeah, that’s pretty funny.
um.. can someone please explain the movie Mulholland Drive to me? anyone. no? didn’t THINK so!! gah.. David Lynch fucks with my head once again.. well done.
i went sailing with a few people from the team today (to get more practice for the upcoming race)… it was fun. i brought my camera. here are some pictures from the day.
the crew for the day. (from front to back: Mike, Robyn, Eric)
Eric… our ’skipper’
Robyn and Eric
Robyn and Eric (to see how much the boat ‘heels/tilts’ while sailing.. follow the lines in the picture in a straight line… that’s usually straight up and down!)
Robyn (hard at work… her job today; to take care of the genoa – the big sail that goes out front!)
Robyn (hard at work…again. isn’t it obvioius?!)
Mike (our ‘bow-man’.. that word is ‘bow’ like “bow-wow”.. he takes care of all the stuff at the FRONT of the boat) 
Mike (doing HIS um… job?! i.. uh.. i guess…)
two little monkeys hard at work, fixing some deck rigging anybody want a banana?!
lounging back at the docks..
the boat that i’m crewing on… to the Florida Keys!!
oh… and also.. now that i’m home, my body is SO fuckin’ tired. as for my ’sickness,’ i was actually doing fine today, but now that i’m home.. my nose is all stuffed up again. it can’t be the dog… i’ve had a dog around ever since i was a kid and never had any problems with it. i wonder what the HELL it is. it’s really annoying, i know that much. just to be safe, i’m drinking some raspberry tea. that always seems to help when i’m sick. i never used to like drinking tea, but to be honest… it’s sorta like smoking cigarettes; there are just times when (even if it doesn’t taste all that grand), it just ‘feels’ right. now is one of those times.. so tea… here i am. make me better.
